Future reflections.

I've been thinking a lot about the future: what I'm gonna do & where I'll live mostly. There are so many pros and cons to so many of the options that I'm considering. The most significant issue that is in the heart of the issue is that I don't want to get to a place five years from now where my desire to see God's kingdom through whatever I do with my life was just an idealistic thought during my time at UCLA. After thinking through everything that scares me about staying in LA or moving home or even moving to a place not yet known to me, I've realized that whatever enables me to stay closest to God's heart is where I want to be & I hope it's the driving force that determines what I do and where I go after college. So scary. So exciting.

I love how so much of what God has been doing in my life in the past two years that never made much sense at all started coming together this year. As I think about my future and considering what my life will be about, even Fresno is making more sense. Whether or not I work with kids (since I don't know yet), I'm realizing how incredibly formative those six weeks can actually be. At first when I found out about Fresno, I was pretty disappointed. I think going abroad could've been an amazing experience & I saw being invited to LAUP as a way to figure out whether or not I could see myself staying longterm in LA post-UCLA. I'm seeing how Fresno can actually be really really good. One: the possibility of working with kids as a form of social justice. Amazing. Two: getting out of the fast-paced life of LA while simultaneously being able to serve and live simply. Exciting, no?

Just to recap: Basically, I'm excited to see what God has in store for my life & my future. Hoorah. :)