Growth

The only thing constant in the world is change

That's why today, I take life as it comes.

-India Arie

I don't know why things happen the way they do. I don't know why I feel what I feel or why I think what I think. But I will take life as it comes, and hopefully experience a tremendous amount of love from Jesus along the way.

Oh, hello ENFJ

I realize this is a little bit silly how unnerved I am about this, but I can't believe I'm an ENFJ. I've been an ESFJ from the first time I took the Myers-Briggs test, but now they say I'm an ENFJ. 44E 12N 38F 44J. I guess when I read the description of the ENFJ, it better describes how I have been this school year than the ESFJ description does...but still. It's strange. I just thought I should let you all know.

My world has sort of turned upside down. haha.

Saturday Morning

I'm having major Disneyland withdrawals right now, but the thought of possibly going soon makes me happy. The thought of seeing the "Remember...Dreams Come True" fireworks show for the first time in three years is also making me way too excited. Omg, those fireworks make me cry, I looooove them.

It's really cool when I wake up naturally at 7:15am. I kind of wish I was a morning person because mornings are so beautiful. I love fresh starts...the beginning of a week, a new quarter, a new year...but even the beginning of everyday is beautiful. I wish I saw & enjoyed them more often.

I love my family. I love my friends. I love to dance. God is good.

Today is going to be a wonderful day :)

God Knows.

So, I've finally admitted to myself the ways that people hurt me. I'm pretty good at making excuses for people, but I think I may have hit a wall. In frustration and desperation, I spent a good 45 minutes talking God's ear off about the ways that how I'm hurt by the way certain people treat our friendship & I asked Him what He had to say about it. He responds "I know how you feel." Now I'm just sad to be reminded of how we grieve God & how he deserves so much more than is humanly possible. Sure, I'm frustrated & I would like some of my friendships to change, but I'm just stuck thinking about how sad it is that we grieve God and we grieve each other.

One Track Mind, My Goodness

I'm leaving in four months. I was sitting in the back of catalyst with Kokeb during the leadership info meeting & it truly sunk in just how much I'm going to dearly miss so many of the people who were in that room. I guess you could say I've been in a funk/major nostalgic mood/wanting to soak in every moment I can with the amazing friends that I've grown so close to over the years. Come June, I will have nearly a million Alvin and the Fishsticks songs to listen to whenever I will get homesick. It's safe to say that I'm not ready for the next chapter of life. Hopefully I will be in four months, but in a way that is healthy. I really want to finish well.

Dear February, March, April, May and June,

Please go as slow as possible.

Love, Amanda