UHHH, COME AGAIN?

So. My last blog post. My prayer that I would actually believe that Jesus is good. WELL, let's just say he showed up in a RIDICULOUS, EXTRAVAGANT, IN YOUR FACE way this weekend.

I have been struggling to understand where he was leading me since I decided to come home because the desire to move home was an inkling stronger than that of staying in LA. So I went to church with my parents Saturday night (Cornerstone Church, their mostly white mega church of about 4-5,000). After service we were in the foyer talking to people, the lead pastor came up to us, struck up a conversation with us. My dad introduces me and somehow after a short conversation, he knows I sing and that I love ethnic reconciliation (among other things). He then proceeds to tell me that he wants to introduce me to people to get me involved in worship at the church. AND he proceeds to tell me that pursuing racial/ethnic diversity and reconciliation is actually a major 5 year plan for their church. Apparently Brenda Salter McNeil (author of The Heart of Racial Justice and A Credible Witness) is one of their speakers for their leadership conference in August. He was so thrilled to hear about how God has really shaped my heart to love reconciliation and asked me to talk to leadership as they begin to figure out what that might look like for the church. I WAS FLOORED. I also was pretty much shaking at how...God inspired this conversation was. God really set that conversation up. And I am THANKFUL BEYOND BELIEF. I knew that babies and singing would have a place in my post-college life, but I had no idea that all the major healing and redemptive work that Jesus has been doing in my life and in my ethnic identity had the potential to affect a little more than myself and some of my immediate relationships. Since Saturday, they've followed through and have asked to set up a time where we can talk about racial diversity in the church. CRAZY RIGHT? I'm slightly overwhelmed at the thought of this. God wouldn't bring something to me if I couldn't handle it right? I feel very excited, ill equipped in "knowledge," but I've definitely leaned into the frustrating yet beautiful thing that is racial reconciliation so there's experience. And many conversations with people about race and ethnicity. I have no idea what to expect next from God, but I cannot even begin to articulate how much I am aware that God is in control, that he has really good things in store for my life.